I wonder if I’ll ever stop sabotaging my recovery .I relapsed once again on this past Tuesday, This time it was with outdated non-narcotic pills which were supposed to have been d/c’d about 2 years ago and I’m still not even sure what one of them was . The way I felt on them scared the heck out of me. My sponsor, my IOP group ,and my primary physician all are aware of this but my pastor doesn’t know yet . I do plan to tell him soon . My doctor didn’t think I needed to go to a detox or rehab at this point and at 1st I was inclined to agree with him but,after two relapses within less than a month , I’m wondering if I may need rehab after all. Pray for me.
@ heather…seeing the date of your writing…how are you today? I hope you have progressed towards healing. ) I’m in a bad spot again, due to my own stupidity, but I know this program helped me many yaers ago and it’s in thanks to this program I am who I am today. I’m not perfect but the program has given me many helpful tools and a place to go and share when I feel as though there is no place to go and no one who I can talk to. Where do I go Lord? I have my faith and I have my hope….but when I am in the mist of the battle it’s not always so easy to keep my cool because I do have a short temper and I have suffered too much abuse in the past to put up with it now. Only thing is..I’ve gotten myself “involved” again and have wondered if I have got any brains at all. So just for today, after a beautiful day, and a argumentive night…I’ve chosen to go to my room, pop in a movie and sit here and write. Thank God for this program too. God Bless you all and pray you have a good night… )
My husband and I have been together for over 20 years. He has had multiple affairs and is addicted to porn. 3 years ago I told him I was not staying married. The problem was I needed a job. I was working part-time and asked my boss that I had been working for over 3 years if he would consider hiring me full-time. He agreed. 2 days later decided he wanted to hire someone from the outside and have me continue working part-time. Although I was devastated I agreed. The very next morning he hired someone. I quit immediately. It still hurts. I have had a few temp jobs but, nothing to help me kick my husband out. This past November he told me he was having an affair with one of his relatives. They have had feelings for each other since they were teens. Here again being unemployed I could not do anything. We have 2 teenagers. Well today he quit his job. I want soooo bad to force him out but I still can’t. Would everyone Please pray I get a job and get this loser out of my life.
Oh, the narcissist – painful to love one. God is healing me…and ohhh, the lonely one – I can so very much relate. I am looking forward to the day we will all be in Heaven. This time on this earth will be in the past – our tears and painful hearts will be gone.
I have a friend in Berlin who might benefit from an overcomers group. Is there one there that can deal with severe emotional problems due to childhood abuse?
visit our website and look for “OO Germany” on our “contact us” Page.
I am looking for resources or a support group to help me overcome living with a narcissist for 25 yrs. NPD was diagnosed in my (now ex) husband during one of the many reconciliations that lead to our divorce. I am not sure I would recognize a healthy relationship. I need prayers to rebuild my self esteem, confidence and health. I am pretty sure the constant condescending nature of that relationship has lead to most if not all of my health problems. I am on my own now, trying to figure this out, with Gods Help. I found an ACOA group that welcomes ppl with all different addiciton backgrounds. I have addiction issues in my history and have been a member of alanon for a lot of years. I love the 12 STeps. I love the Lord Jesus Christ. Any help you can offer or direction concerning surviving NPD would be most appreciated.
For Heather…. Ask God to help you find scriptures that are meant just for you. Memorize just one….Jeremiah 29:12 is a great place to start. Speak HIS word back unto the Lord and great things will happen! We have a similar walk my friend, I am praying for you. It is hard. The enemy wants to defeat you. Pray the most precious blood of Jesus over every room of your house. Ask God what he has for you. Get ready to the best of your ability each day as if God has an encounter for you. When I get out of my own way, things happen. When I stay stuck in the loneliness and muck nothing much good gets through. I get out on the path any day that I can walk. (I have mobility issues). In the meantime know that you are not alone. My sponsor had me make a list of all the ppl who get out of bed just so I can stay comfy in my house — I didnt like it–But the street sweeper, the garbage collector, the mailman, the electric company, the gas company, the grocery owner, even the crossing guard and the pennsaver lady were just a few who are busy every day ….because I live here. I never looked at it that way. Hope this Blesses You….. We serve a God of the impossible. If this mess was possible for us to fix, we wouldn’t need God…. My God is BIGGER than this! My God Reigns!
I’d like to ask everybody to please pray for my fiancees grandmother Helen and his great grandmother Story who is 95 years old….They are faithful Christians whom because of mobility and health problems, can’t get to church……Please pray for their strength and for the Lord to shower them with blessings and guard them with his shield of protection. I would also ask for prayer for my fiancee and I to continue to grow and understand each other so that we may share a healthy and happy marriage to come. Also for the Sacramento Ca O.O group to continue to flourish…..Thanks and God Bless
Christmas is the time of giving yourself as a gift to others so what
could be more a blessing as praying for emerging new OO/C12 groups in Hamburg,
Berlin, Bremen, Munich, Stuttgart where people are in need … please pray with us!
Have been a “willing” child of God for 10+ years. So much pain (body broken, surgery, med problems) so much torment (depression, past, friends fade away, sexual assault) so alone.
Even though my mom died 12 years ago, I thought I wouldn’t really “know” the pain of the holidays like this again any time soon. But alas, a resurgence of the enemy coming at me through “friends” and the loss of a very dear and beloved “other” Dad have taken their toll.
Even though I know the Lord and have faith in His power and strength and desire to bring only love to my life, I am so tired of the pain of everyday life. Am grateful that taking my own life is no longer an option. But more days than not, especially recently, it seems like I may have to just be resigned to being alone all my days on this earth and painfully walking forward until I can go home.
I can’t remember what it’s like to go a day without pain. Lord and Master, be with me, for I am lonely and afraid. Surrounded on all sides, but with my eyes trained on you. Grateful for a web search that led me to this site.
I wonder if I’ll ever stop sabotaging my recovery .I relapsed once again on this past Tuesday, This time it was with outdated non-narcotic pills which were supposed to have been d/c’d about 2 years ago and I’m still not even sure what one of them was . The way I felt on them scared the heck out of me. My sponsor, my IOP group ,and my primary physician all are aware of this but my pastor doesn’t know yet . I do plan to tell him soon . My doctor didn’t think I needed to go to a detox or rehab at this point and at 1st I was inclined to agree with him but,after two relapses within less than a month , I’m wondering if I may need rehab after all. Pray for me.
@ heather…seeing the date of your writing…how are you today? I hope you have progressed towards healing.
) I’m in a bad spot again, due to my own stupidity, but I know this program helped me many yaers ago and it’s in thanks to this program I am who I am today. I’m not perfect but the program has given me many helpful tools and a place to go and share when I feel as though there is no place to go and no one who I can talk to. Where do I go Lord? I have my faith and I have my hope….but when I am in the mist of the battle it’s not always so easy to keep my cool because I do have a short temper and I have suffered too much abuse in the past to put up with it now. Only thing is..I’ve gotten myself “involved” again and have wondered if I have got any brains at all. So just for today, after a beautiful day, and a argumentive night…I’ve chosen to go to my room, pop in a movie and sit here and write. Thank God for this program too. God Bless you all and pray you have a good night… 
)
My husband and I have been together for over 20 years. He has had multiple affairs and is addicted to porn. 3 years ago I told him I was not staying married. The problem was I needed a job. I was working part-time and asked my boss that I had been working for over 3 years if he would consider hiring me full-time. He agreed. 2 days later decided he wanted to hire someone from the outside and have me continue working part-time. Although I was devastated I agreed. The very next morning he hired someone. I quit immediately. It still hurts. I have had a few temp jobs but, nothing to help me kick my husband out. This past November he told me he was having an affair with one of his relatives. They have had feelings for each other since they were teens. Here again being unemployed I could not do anything. We have 2 teenagers. Well today he quit his job. I want soooo bad to force him out but I still can’t. Would everyone Please pray I get a job and get this loser out of my life.
Oh, the narcissist – painful to love one. God is healing me…and ohhh, the lonely one – I can so very much relate. I am looking forward to the day we will all be in Heaven. This time on this earth will be in the past – our tears and painful hearts will be gone.
I have a friend in Berlin who might benefit from an overcomers group. Is there one there that can deal with severe emotional problems due to childhood abuse?
visit our website and look for “OO Germany” on our “contact us” Page.
I am looking for resources or a support group to help me overcome living with a narcissist for 25 yrs. NPD was diagnosed in my (now ex) husband during one of the many reconciliations that lead to our divorce. I am not sure I would recognize a healthy relationship. I need prayers to rebuild my self esteem, confidence and health. I am pretty sure the constant condescending nature of that relationship has lead to most if not all of my health problems. I am on my own now, trying to figure this out, with Gods Help. I found an ACOA group that welcomes ppl with all different addiciton backgrounds. I have addiction issues in my history and have been a member of alanon for a lot of years. I love the 12 STeps. I love the Lord Jesus Christ. Any help you can offer or direction concerning surviving NPD would be most appreciated.
For Heather…. Ask God to help you find scriptures that are meant just for you. Memorize just one….Jeremiah 29:12 is a great place to start. Speak HIS word back unto the Lord and great things will happen! We have a similar walk my friend, I am praying for you. It is hard. The enemy wants to defeat you. Pray the most precious blood of Jesus over every room of your house. Ask God what he has for you. Get ready to the best of your ability each day as if God has an encounter for you. When I get out of my own way, things happen. When I stay stuck in the loneliness and muck nothing much good gets through. I get out on the path any day that I can walk. (I have mobility issues). In the meantime know that you are not alone. My sponsor had me make a list of all the ppl who get out of bed just so I can stay comfy in my house — I didnt like it–But the street sweeper, the garbage collector, the mailman, the electric company, the gas company, the grocery owner, even the crossing guard and the pennsaver lady were just a few who are busy every day ….because I live here. I never looked at it that way. Hope this Blesses You….. We serve a God of the impossible. If this mess was possible for us to fix, we wouldn’t need God…. My God is BIGGER than this! My God Reigns!
I’d like to ask everybody to please pray for my fiancees grandmother Helen and his great grandmother Story who is 95 years old….They are faithful Christians whom because of mobility and health problems, can’t get to church……Please pray for their strength and for the Lord to shower them with blessings and guard them with his shield of protection. I would also ask for prayer for my fiancee and I to continue to grow and understand each other so that we may share a healthy and happy marriage to come. Also for the Sacramento Ca O.O group to continue to flourish…..Thanks and God Bless
Christmas is the time of giving yourself as a gift to others so what
could be more a blessing as praying for emerging new OO/C12 groups in Hamburg,
Berlin, Bremen, Munich, Stuttgart where people are in need … please pray with us!
GOD LOVES HIS FOLKS PRAYING AND GLORIFYING HIM!
Have been a “willing” child of God for 10+ years. So much pain (body broken, surgery, med problems) so much torment (depression, past, friends fade away, sexual assault) so alone.
Even though my mom died 12 years ago, I thought I wouldn’t really “know” the pain of the holidays like this again any time soon. But alas, a resurgence of the enemy coming at me through “friends” and the loss of a very dear and beloved “other” Dad have taken their toll.
Even though I know the Lord and have faith in His power and strength and desire to bring only love to my life, I am so tired of the pain of everyday life. Am grateful that taking my own life is no longer an option. But more days than not, especially recently, it seems like I may have to just be resigned to being alone all my days on this earth and painfully walking forward until I can go home.
I can’t remember what it’s like to go a day without pain. Lord and Master, be with me, for I am lonely and afraid. Surrounded on all sides, but with my eyes trained on you. Grateful for a web search that led me to this site.